Lost for a season
You ever had a desire in your heart? You have a passion for something but you think it’s dumb, crazy, or people don’t get your vision. I know that feeling. I ignored it for years & I let life pass me by. I’m not proud to admit I tried to figure things on my own when I walked away from God-not once, but several times.
Having to figure things out on my own is when I was in the most misery. I was lost in darkness that my physical & mental health took a hit in the past few years. I couldn’t leave my house for months without the fear of having another panic attack. I was not able to function normally in life with that fear of not feeling safe or secure.
It wasn’t until I reconnected with God that I was able to get back up again last year in November. Unfortunately, that didn’t last long when I got discouraged with life & business that I was not getting the results I wanted. I worked so hard but was met with so much resistance that I slipped back into old ways.
Last weekend I had the biggest breakdown in years after I had a major breakthrough. I realized that I was still holding on to the past hurts that left me jaded, wounded, mistrustful, & doubtful. In my despair I didn’t know when I’d get back up that I turned to God in my despair.
In 7 days God had to breakdown the old version of me to rebuild my life & business. He took my basic dream & magnified it by 1000x. Heavenly Father just wanted me to turn to Him. To trust Him. To let Him. How could I trust Him? I couldn’t trust others or even myself. Jesus taught me to trust myself more so that I could learn to trust Him more. I didn’t feel right to share my faith with integrity when my choices don’t align with God’s. It didn’t matter that I was imperfectly flawed because God knew my difficulties & challenges. I didn’t need to be perfect to come to Jesus. It’s His business that Jesus paid that price for me & you. The journey you take will look unique to yours that God will teach you in the way a parent knows how to educate His child.
In my journey of entrepreneurship I lost my gifts & talents for a season. I fell so hard & so many times through many chapters & seasons in my life. It was always my dream to start my own business & to help struggling women like me. A woman who was suffering in silence & felt so alone. I never wanted another woman to experience the agony, despair, & helpless I did in 2018 in my darkest moment of my life after my divorce & trying to heal from my past issues on my own. It harmed me physically & mentally in that season. I’m thankful for the angels God sent me at that time of my struggles. It’s why I value faith in Jesus, therapy, mentorship, support, & community so much that has helped me grown into the woman I am today.
I stopped blogging in that season listening to other’s opinions that I lost my own voice. It took years to figure out what business I wanted to do & try again. I would get overwhelmed, overthink, & procrastinate that starting a business over again would be hard. Times changed from when I started as an entrepreneur in 2009 & 2016 in the digital space. You can start now for so little & the tools, resources, & mentorship available now I wish I had then.
I’m thankful to find my voice, my passion, & spark the fire within that was lost. To no longer dim my light & use my God-given talents & gifts for good. To walk in faith & step into my purpose to help women create more income & impact. To create Her Legacy of what matters most in life.
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